[Lindsay] It's something that you walk by every single time you're here.
If you just think about all the people who have touched this rope and all how much hope they had.
I was like, "Well, I'm going to ring the crap out of that bell someday."
So, we're headed to my work. It's where I go every day to work as an oncology nurse.
Something about today is I'm also going to get my chemo treatment, and it's actually my last chemo treatment.
I told my family that I was going to be a nurse when I was five years old, and I never changed my mind.
I don't know if it was so much of a choice as it was just me, and I recognized it early on.
It is hard because the people that I work with are the ones that are treating me too.
[Lindsay] Hi. Is this arm okay?
[Lindsay] Something I used to tell my patients is, like, oh, this is just gonna to be a phase in your life, and I would try to use that to be encouraging.
Now I worry that that was just trivializing it all.
It's way more than a phase. It's kind of like a part of you now.
You've been stamped with a "C" stamp or something.
Your mind immediately goes to your children after being diagnosed with cancer.
You wonder, "Am I going to be able to lift my daughter up after surgery? Am I going to be able to cook them dinner, and get them up in the morning?"
So you just kind of, you know, make it a positive experience.
I think birthdays are a lot more special now. It means I'm not the age I was diagnosed at anymore.
It's on to the next year. You just have, you know, so much hope.
I had my second child in April and was following up on some symptoms after pregnancy.
She was about five months old when I was diagnosed. So, rectal cancer. It's definitely an eye opener from the start.
[Lindsay's Husband] One of the first things she said to me after we learned of her diagnosis was, "You didn't sign up for this," and that ripped my heart out.
[Lindsay] This is the big chair where I get my special medicine.
[Lindsay's Son] I don't see your special medicine.
[Lindsay] They're going to bring it in.
[Husband] It's her very last one.
[Lindsay] I would be lying if I said I wasn't nervous. But regardless, today is going to be a celebration.
[Husband] Mom needs to sit there for about a half hour.
[Son] Is it your last medicine?
[Lindsay] It is my last medicine. Hey, what do I get to do since it's my last medicine? Ring the bell? Yes.
[Son] Are they going to get the bell?
[Lindsay] Well, the bell's out front. I'll show it to you in a minute.
[Nurse] You see this little blue button right here?
[Nurse] Okay, we're going to hit that, okay? Can you reach it?
[Nurse] Okay, and go.
[Lindsay] No matter what my future holds, this signifies accomplishing this first battle, and hopefully it only takes one battle to win the war. [light music] Yay!
[Husband] Mama chemo over.
[Lindsay] Oh, yay! Can you say thank you, everybody?
[Son] Thank you.
[Lindsay] Thank you, everybody, for coming.
Let's ring the bell, you and I.
Ready? One, two, three.
[bell ringing] [cheering]
I mean, I feel like I'm on a really good path now.
I see the light at the end of the tunnel, and I do feel like I'm miles away from when I was first diagnosed.
But I don't know if I'll ever feel like I've conquered it. I want the end of my story to be a good one.